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6/6/13
Dear Diary,
Is love, at first sight, is a thing? I must search for this on Quora. Today was my first day at ABC Co. Also, of Ruhee's. She's honest, considerate, charming, fit, of the height of around 5", wore kitten heels, navy blue skirt with peach shirt, had earrings, twinkling eyes, and silky hair. Altogether, she looked perfect. We chatted for a bit, and I like her. Tomorrow the HR will be assigning us to various teams, and I hope to be in the same project team as hers.

7/6/13
Dear Diary,
Should I call myself a lucky boy? Ruhee and I are on the same team. I know, it is my first job, and I should focus more on the job and not on some stranger girl. But is she? Though, We spoke hardly for 5 minutes today. I was busy setting up my desk, and so was she. I feel this is going to be an exciting journey with ABC.

6/7/13
Dear Diary,
It's been one month that I've known Ruhee. Okay...let me rephrase it- it's my monthaversary with ABC, and I've started to like her even more. So, I asked her to celebrate the anniversary with me...she laughed but agreed within a minute. We sneaked out and spent almost an hour at the cafeteria. If it was a date, I embarrassed myself- I spilled coffee on my shirt. She could not stop laughing, and to hide the awkwardness, I too started to laugh loudly. In my defense- I've thought of having to spend alone time with her for the past month. When today it happened, I was amazed by her simplicity, I was in awe when she played with her hair, and how can I forget those sparkling eyes.

//Haan Main Gumsum Hoon
In Rahon Ki Tarah
Tere Khwabon Mein
Teri Khwahishon Mein Chupa

Naa Jane Kyu
Hai Roz Ka Silsila
Tu Ruh Ki Hai Dastan

Teri Zulfo Ki Ye Nami
Teri Ankho Ka Ye Nasha
Yaha Kho Bhi Jau To Mein
Kya Kasoor Hai Mera//

1/1/14
Dear Diary,
I've ruined my friendship with Ruhee at new years' party. I felt unsettled by the thought of- Does she think about me the way I do? Am I just an office colleague to her? She hardly uses her phone in the office, but what if she has a boyfriend? I was drunk, and I bombarded her with the questions on the dance floor, and she just walked away. It's a holiday today, should I text her a sorry message? Or should I behave like I don't remember a bit about the night? I know, it won't be normal now. A few months, my subconsciously overthinking mind imagined us hitting it on a road...where there is always an accident in the next few kilometers. This time, it is mine.

2/1/14
Dear Diary,
Last night, out of remorse, I texted her...she did not revert. She avoided me today too. I'm going to go to her desk tomorrow and apologize.

3/1/14
Dear Diary,
I am on cloud nine right now. I went to her desk at around 3 PM and apologized for my behavior. She asked me to meet at an emergency exit door at 4 PM. As I went, she was already waiting for me. She dragged and kissed me passionately on the lips, and I kissed her back. Later, she said, "apology accepted," and confessed her feelings for me from our monthaversary date. She has asked me to meet her at the JoJo cafe tomorrow.

9/9/14
Dear Diary,
It was our 5th fight, and I've never felt this much hurt, ever. I feel like crying- she wants to move to Pune for a better opportunity. When I asked her about us, she replied- 'long distance.' Everyone knows, long-distance relationships never work. She even applied to a few of the companies without consulting with me. I cannot stop her, but she should have consulted me first. She wants me to be supportive, so I'll be. I'll bid her goodbye with a wide smile. It may become my first failed relationship. However, she must be having her reasons. They say, in a relationship, one of the partners always has to compromise more. It must be me this time.

//Teri Saanson Ki Raat Hai
Teri Hontho Ki Hai Sada
Yaha Kho Bhi Jau To Mein
Kya Kasoor Hai Yeh Mera//

6/1/15
Dear Diary,
When you are in love, you get hurt. It's like a cut- it will heal, but will leave a scar. I felt hurt, but I did not let her feel my feelings. It was the farewell day of Ruhee at ABC, and she'll leave for Pune on the 8th and has to join a new firm on the 9th. She wanted to spend today evening with me- I sneaked off. I cried today, a lot. I'm still sobbing. She has asked me to join her firm in Pune, I won't- I want her to be supportive of me.

8/1/15
Dear Diary,
Courage is to let go of loved ones. I dropped Ruhee at the airport today. We both were silent, holding each other's hand, and she was leaning on my shoulder. Throughout the day, we did not talk much. At the airport, she kissed me...with the same passion as our first kiss. I could not kiss her back. She asked me just a question, "You know that we are going to make it work, right?" I smiled with teary eyes, nodded, and let her go.

//Kyun Yeh Afsane
In Lamho Mein Kho Gaye
Hum Ghayal The
In Lafzon Mein Kho Gaye

The Hum Anjane
Ab Dil Mein Tum Ho Chupe
Hum Hai Shehar Ki Parchiyan

Teri Sanson Ki Rat Hai
Teri Honth Ki Hai Sada
Yaha Kho Bhi Jau To Mein

Kya Kasoor hain mera//

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Song name is "Kasoor" by Prateek Kuhad