they call me weird (click to read more)

at midnight,
when I stare at a wall...
i see a lizard staring back at me.
i notice, it does not have any eyelashes...
i remember,
once dadi told me-
if a lizard sees peacock’s feathers anywhere,
it will not come there ever…
i find one such feather in a drawer,
i start playing with a lizard and peacock’s feather!

in the evening,
when i sit on a balcony,
i see birds flying.
my mental wires start connecting the dots-
are they directionless?
do they envy me?
what their daily routine would be?
what will a blind bird do?

on a nearby electric pole,
i see other birds fighting with each other,
i speak to myself again-
i have kept enough food and water for them on a veranda,
they know it.
what would they be fighting for?
what is their relation to each other?
their love interest?
is one of them a bully?

on the terrace-
i see birds again,
this time they are building their house!
i wonder,
how does their system work?
do they have a barter system or monetary?

at home-
papa has temper issues,
maa has OCD.
they are proud of me!
they introduce me as 'my son'.
when i become critical of my little sister
or when i show a bit of a temper,
they don't introduce me as their son.
i do not like it.
i wonder,
what if i confront them?
or should i behave exactly the opposite?

on a solar eclipse day,
everyone in the family follows pandit's superstitions.
i once asked a pandit- what about eclipses happening on the other side of a sun?
now, they all label me as a disrespectful fellow!

at a nearby park,
i see a couple…
i try to understand their story,
by just observing them!
do i have any right to observe them?
still i do.
i try to paint their story on a canvas with colours,
i fail…

someday-
i see a tree when there is no breeze,
when none of its leaves are dancing to their own tune.
i wonder,
what if someone has performed a black magic on that tree?
is it going to die? soon?

at funerals-
i see-
people dying and others crying!
hopelessly.
i wonder-
are attachments overrated?

on a holiday getaway-
i stand on the edge of a cliff.
the world looks amazing from there!
i wonder-
if i jump, will i land like a superman?
or will i break my skull?